ifuseekjamie:

Thank you for finally seeing me today. 

I’m finally content with myself and about us. 

I know my feelings for you were real, I know what we had was real. I had faith in us and in you. I still and will always love you. You were a part of me and my heart for a long time and I’ll miss you. I’ll miss what we had together and I cherish every moment. I don’t regret us or anything about us. You showed me how to love and be love. I’m grateful for that. I’m grateful to have been in love with my bestfriend. You’ll always have a part of my heart. Thank you for everything. Thank you for the memories. Thank you for still caring about me. I know its hard now, but i’m glad you said i’m your bestfriend too and that we’d always be friends. I’d rather have you in my life as a friend than not at all. Thank you for finally seeing me today. This was really hard for me to accept but i know i’ll have to. I just hope you know that nobody will ever love you the way I did & you won’t find a family out there like mine. They love you & they will miss you. Thank you for making me feel like I was a part of your family as well. I’ll miss them & i hope we’ll all be really good friends no matter what happened. I know i’ll always have a part of your heart that nobody will fill because you will always have a place in my heart. It’s gonna be hard to move on from you even though you want me to because you treated me so well. I never once took you for granted, I hope you know that. If you feel like i did take you for granted, I’m sorry. I know you never wanted to hurt me, but you’re only human. I hope that you take care of yourself. I want you to be happy, even if it’s not with me. I hope she treats you well. It’s hard saying goodbye to you and what we had. You were my first love, I was looking forward to growing old with you, but God had a different plan for me than what I had for myself. It’s hard for me to see this right now, but I know that i’ll smile and be happy again one day. I hope you keep the pictures I gave you and place everything about us in that box & hopefully one day you’ll open it & smile. Hopefully you’ll remember the love we had & how we grew and learned from each other. It was a great 4 1/2 years but our fairy tale had to end one day.  Everything still feels like a bad dream to me, but i know i’ll wake up & be okay.

I saw in your face how hard it was for you to say Goodbye to Lucky. I know you love her just as much as she loves you, you’re welcome to see her whenever you’d like. I know she’d like that. 

It’s going to be a new year soon & a new beginning for the both of us. I’ll be seeing you Ryan. 

shit made me cry, fuck.

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